AUD

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That's how it's marked in my calendar; it's how I've always marked it in my calendar. The notation hasn't changed, but I have. I haven't performed in a full-length show in over a year, and haven't auditioned for anything in just about 2 years. I feel ... ambivalent. I'm not sure that I really truly understood the nature of ambilvalence until now. I've ususally used that word either (a.) to describe something akin to reluctance, (b.) when I couldn't care less, or (c.) in order to avoid commitment. No longer will I disrespect this excellent and perfect word.

AUD. Nobody is more surprised than I.

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Basil said…
I'm with you. Neither a positive nor negative impulse besides nostalgia and occasional and fleeting envy.
It's as if the question might not have been posed at all.

We are getting AUD.
4/20/09, 8:44 PM
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